Joslyn Perez
4/1/09

Reflection 8

It was a long internship vacation I had and I really missed my students showing up to the office and seeing everyone once again was exciting because it has been a long time. At the office I worked on the agenda for today’s SAS class, and what I planned for my students. I was very excited about the day, and working with my students once again. I also drove to internship for the first time in my car. At the school after school everyone caught up with anything new that has been going on, and we discussed what work we have gotten done, what’s missing, so I was very upset about that. I brought a camera in, and took pictures of the classroom and the students, and how they were working. Those pictures are going to be used for a PowerPoint that I’ll create for my exhibition, or even a college poster. These pictures are pictures that I will keep forever to hold and save, because they’re wonderful memories that I shared with this students. It makes me feel good looking at them, and knowing that I had a group of students listening to me and looking up to me and supporting every work I had for them. We’ve been working hard and as a team, and I like the fact that they like me not only as a teacher, but also as a leader and a friend. I remember starting this program and thinking that I don’t know what I’m doing and how will I get through this. Things started off really tough for me, and I was always nervous about how each class will go. It took me a long time to get in that comfort zone of going to SAS, and knowing what I’ll be doing, how things will go, and how I felt. Believe it or not, these children scared me, they had me nervous, they never tried to break me down but I always felt the pressure and the tension. Students liked me a lot, because I was young and down to earth like they were. I had trouble dealing with that, and not having them push it further, and not having them take advantage of that. I wanted them to feel like I was the cool teacher that everyone got along with and was very friendly, ask me for any help or anything, but I also wanted to get the respect I deserved at the same time. There were times when a student attempted to disrespect me, and I didn’t like it at all, because I’m not just your friend, I’m our teacher and I’m older than you. I took that student aside from everyone else, and talk to him about it. I asked him that I was getting the impression that he didn’t like me very much from the way he was treating me, and I told to let me know because I’m not comfortable with that, and it’s not right. He just told me that he felt like I was treating him and the other boys in class differently from the girls. Honestly, I don’t think I ever did that but, I respected his opinions. I told him that from now on in class, things will be clearer for everyone, and I will treat everyone the same, and notice when anyone is doing something wrong. After we talked about it, he agreed to his part, I apologized and so did he and we both started all over. Ever since, things between him and me in class worked differently, on a better level. That’s the way I wanted things to be, I didn’t want any student to give me a hard time, or myself give anyone a hard time.